2018 was brutal on my marriage. We always fought but 2018 was my tipping point. I didn’t think we would make it another 6 months.
My husband and I have very different ways of viewing life's challenges and we both suffer from the “I’m right” syndrome. We were both tired, dead tired. We loved each other but we questioned if love was really enough.
One night Tony was complaining of his neck and back hurting. I asked if he wanted reiki and to my surprise he said yes. My instincts lead me to his left shoulder.
I laid my hands on his shoulder and felt his pain instantly. Then I saw this vision of black clouds and this really mean dark energy and a woman, so I looked a little deeper. Then I was horrified! It was ME. It was my rage, and anger. I saw myself through his perspective. It was HARD. I know myself even when I’m angry, I know my heart, but my heart was not in this picture that I saw. I have never been so dumbstruck. To see your darkness through the lens of someone you love is truly heartbreaking. I continued to run reiki and send love and I moved the energy out of his shoulder.
I never had truly thought about how destructive my anger was, and this is to a man I love! I’m truly grateful for the reality slap in the face!! I forgave myself and committed to do better.
A few days later I ran reiki again, this time on his back. I was scared and curious to see what would happened. As I worked I could feel his energy again. The way he felt when we met. This yummy, free spirited, loving, blue (weird, but I feel colors) energy. Through this session I was reminded of the man I fell in love with.
I asked what he felt and he said relaxed. That’s pretty much all he ever feels during a session. He’s my toughest critic!
After that our relationship started to change. I think clearing black clouds of Wife rage out of your shoulder would of course do the trick!
About a month later I got hit with some pretty intense news and he really grounded the situation for me. His humor and steadiness is truly the perfect balance for me. I’m so grateful we made it through the storm.
It’s been 7 months since those events and I can say that we truly have never been happier or more in love than we are now. So if you’re going through hell....
1.) Look at your darkness, pay attention to where you direct it and take responsibility for it.
2.) Clear your energy or have someone clear it for you. Book a session today www.wildflowersatmidnight.com
100% chance your body is holding onto some drama that needs to go.
3.) Give gratitude for humor and steadiness, without which we would be lost.
Bonus Lesson ** Love better without expectation, when you do that then the love is mirrored back to you even brighter!